Saturday, November 21, 2009
Arduous times ahead..
If i say that i still tear at this age, would you believe me?
Haiz, it all boils down to frustration and resentment that accumulated over the years. And because of that, the family is becoming increasingly dysfunctional and fragile...As time goes, internal decay is more evident while the higher-ups continue to act with apathy and indifference.
Sometimes, i contemplate about ways to end everything once and for all. But...the question is, HOW? Perhaps spilling blood?
She thought that i said all those in a fit of pique but i really mean it..Things have to change - permanently, not temporarily.
Nowadays, i just feel like i'm a brain-dead person who is surviving on life machines and mechanism but for my case - i'm surviving on emotional support from the veterans, friends and buddies alike. How long will they continue to hold on to me?
The end of fight...
3:53 PM
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Got back my results!
Hehe, overall results were quite heartening at the very least; but still not up to the standard expectations yet (If i got such results during A lvl...someone would be dead tomorrow :X):
GP - B
Maths - A
Econs - B
Hist - D
H1 Chem - A
MT - D
LOL total points: 69/80....and when people heard the acad points being 69, they all started laughing their asses off; some even asked me whether i liked 69 ~_~ WHATEVER
BUT BUT BUT...this time round, the one thing that really lightened my mood was GP. Still remember in BVSS, my english was always C5/C6 de...and each time we got back our test or exam results for English, i would always be quite badly shaken up as i always had this bad feeling that i would fail English. And to add on, failing English = 70% chance dropping into NA so yeah...WHOO B FOR GP =DDD EUPHORIC!
Exhausted like superrrrr lah...went to Lot 1 to watch 2012 with CheeYong. Not bad a show, 4 stars out of 5 ;)
The end of fight...
1:01 AM
Sunday, November 8, 2009
WHOO OP is coming soon ^^
Hahs, my OP exam is on next friday...which leaves me with a tonne of time to practice =D During the "full dress" rehearsal, my econs tutor who was an "outsider assessor" told me to tone down and lower my volume -,- Most people were soft for OP and now that i'm loud they told me to be softer...?
A level starting officially tomorrow, Geog/History paper first. Hahas i know i'm kinda bad lah...and i feel guilty writing this, but i seriously hope that Price Discrimination won't be tested for this year's Econs paper...Cos if it is not tested this year, then for our year...TA DA! Confirm come out =DDD Lets pray hard ^^
Oh ya, and yesterday's BBQ was kinda LOL! Ate a lot of BEEF, GIANT hotdog and some satays thanks to tcytcy who gave it to me =DD The funniest part was the truth or dare thingy...they damn useless seh, can't even push 2 people down (1 was Hassan, the other was...bleah can't remember :X) HAHA some parts were damn funny, like the Arun who was "dropped" into the pool and Calvin who keep on pushing people down, only to end up being pushed down himself -_-""
Shall stop here...kinda weird that i (can) wake up at 9am =D Good luck to JASON NEO and LYNETTE NG for their "A"s on monday =DDD hahas...forever love..?
The end of fight...
9:16 AM
Monday, October 26, 2009
WOOTS! SOMETHING TO BE HAPPY OF =DD
LOLS, anyway..many things happened today. And there's the happy and sad side of it. Talking about the sad side..
Haiz, got back paper results for EOY. When results were released, my initial worries were amplified. And my no.1 worry was that the whole class might not be able to make it as a whole to J2. Not gonna mention any names here, but seriously, i do worry for my class when it comes to promotion. No doubt the Pegasus aka retainees, which comprises some 1/5 of the class, should be able to make it. It is the other 4/5 of the class, that i fear, might not be able to make it to J2.
By results solely, it seemed like less than that 4/5 can even make it. And that is one worrying figure to ponder about seriously. Feels as if an academic depression struck the class with great intensity, sending most into a mental slump.
But all hope is not lost - as mentioned above...Its by results solely which is only 60% of the overall grade. There is still 20% MYE and 20% CA which is a glimpse of hope for those who failed by a slim margin for their major EOY.
Nevertheless, those who didn't scored well for their MYE could still face potential difficulties to promotion. But, there's still a last way out - CT + ST's recommendation. However...this should only be the LAST resort for those promising ones who failed by a slight margin..
Now for the good news, HAHA my results were quite heartening. Or at least it convinced me that i could kick out of a stagflation period through immense hardwork..
Paper based results solely:
H1GP - C/56
H2 Hist - D/52
H2 Maths - A/93
H2 Econs - B/62
H1 Chem - A/74
H1 MT - D/52 (Like who cares about it...)
Enough of the +ve side; things always go wrong when we become overly optimistic/positive.
Anyway...All the best for those who are struggling to promote. Seriously, i cried for someone...haiz...if we promote yet others don't promote then it would be dull and boring; if we retain yet others promote then it would be even worse seh...Seriously, why can't we either all promote or all retain ar?
If a lot of my friends around me are seriously retaining; i wouldn't hesitate to appeal - to retain.
The end of fight...
6:37 PM
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Lethargic...Yet there's so many things that i wanna talk about within this blog post...
Well, Promos are over and here comes the dreaded PW and MT. Managed to finish the WR after all the headaches, migraines and hard work. And i must say a BIG THANK YOU to Ayl for the help he offered =D
Seriously worn out now; have got much stuffs to cover but oh well...my physical limits are affecting my mental capacity :x
In my next post...i will discuss about my Promos and all the acad shit + some emotional turbulence i went through recently :(
Meanwhile..i''m looking forward to creating a new twitter and facebook account, as well as a new blogskin real soon =DDD
Oh, and i just bought new socks ^^ Wanna cross-wear my socks =D
Is it like or love?
What defines love?
And what distinguish like and love?
The end of fight...
1:17 AM
Sunday, October 11, 2009
My "economy" is stagnating, like the US's one during the 1970s / Stagflation :(Same old problems plagued (notice the word is in past tense) me during the exams. Can't stop practicing for maths, cos i always had the feeling that i would forget all those concepts during the examination period :x Its just like O level Add maths; i cleared all the questions from the TYS, then when exams come, i was damn scare and afraid that i would simply blank out and TADA, DIE! In simple terms, i termed it "Persistent Confidence Deficit/PCD (And its not PUSSYCAT DOLLS)
8 oct was my "birth anniversary"; received countless birthday messages, more than like 20, 30+ ? Its seriously sweet to receive such messages ranging from Pri School Classmates to JC college mates =DDD And some more, my exam coincided with the Econs paper which therefore means that i must DO WELL FOR IT ^^
Went out on friday with the usual veterans + Keefe ^^ Ate at Astons and Ayl was late (as usual/duh) :x Talked and had a fair share of laughter there :)
Now i'm left with the neh neh H1 chem; must Ace it by hook or crook and show the other H, E and M group the power of the superpower C group =DDD
CAN'T WAIT FOR DA HOLIDAY ^^
The end of fight...
3:37 PM
Thursday, October 1, 2009
Mood swings? Probably so.
Hahs, Mid-Course is coming :) Can't wait for Maths and Chem paper to come - cos they are the only paper i can get an A :x History if can get >E than happy liao...Econs aim for B lor. No choice, case study confirm tricky de.
Lol, birthday coincides with Mid-Course, hope that the gods may wish me luck ;D
Kinda or more like, seriously burnt out these days. Its either i can't sleep or that i can sleep for a mere few hours after which i become a walking zombie. And it seem to be turning into a habit real soon :( oh man...
Relationships - they become a problem when commitment is heavily slanted. Say for example, your friend ask you to do something for the first time (assuming you just got to know that friend). You did it, and he said thank you. There's nothing wrong right?
But what IF, it soon becomes a burden? What if you are repeatedly asked to do tasks by your same, particular friend? And what if repeated favors asked are not reciprocated at all?
Definitely, solutions ranging from, rejecting the task to swallowing all the anger would surface but what if...that friend was someone you like? True, that you should not be angry with someone you like under any conditions. But...it just gets so tiring after all. Liking for someone is one thing; fulfilling favors is another separate entity.
A word of disclaimer; the above does not apply to anyone though. Just a thought whenever i felt used by some of my buddies, only to have the favor reciprocated ;D
I still love...that person...
The end of fight...
6:08 PM
